Even now...

Have you ever hated somebody's actions so much that you wish they would just leave and never come back but yet, loved them so much, you knew you'd die if they didn't? I've been through this pain before I've even cried these tears before but to get them back, I'd go through so much more. I'm going to smile like nothing's wrong, talk like everything’s perfect, act like it’s just a dream and pretend that it's not hurting me.

The truth of the matter is, I still have feelings for you. And no matter how many times I tell myself that I'm better off without you, a part of me just won't let go. I know I made a lot of stupid mistakes in my life, but the worst one was thinking the person who hurt me the most wouldn't hurt me again.

I'd rather be your lover than your friend, but I'd rather be your friend than your nobody. I've convinced everyone else that I don't like you and that I don't love you anymore. Now all I need to do is convince myself.
To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find their own happiness without expecting them to come back. I know you never meant to do everything you put me through; and its okay. I never regretted telling you I liked you, I only regretted never hearing what you really thought of me.

Love is putting up with someone's bad qualities because they somehow complete you.

There will always be faces you can never look at without emotion and there are names you can never hear spoken without that same old feelings returning. Just when you think you can move on, you'll remember all the reasons why you held on so long. Why do I waste my time? Why is it that you're so damn irreplaceable? Thank God I'm unconvinced, so at least I still function.