Can't sleep...
Was my 89yr old aunt's funeral yesterday, took off from work, but didn't attend - guess it affected me more than I thought. Was related to me by my sister (Vio) that the deceased's eldest daughter, Dulcie's husband (Francis,57 ) had killed himself too (financial and infidelity issues) Dwelling on the fleeting nature of my life on earth... Jessie, my 'roomy' cat also acting wierd, just let her out now - everything so unsettled.
Promised to go to my friend, Gregory's birthday party this evening (46?), but my heart's not in it. Another friend, Penny Snyders, also needs to meet, early evening, for a chat about things weighing on her. Don't know if I'm going to do any good with my current disposition in floating dispair and rage...
Outside dog (under a year old) on heat, two males fighting all the time. So older, more aggressive and stronger dog (Bruno) needs to be chained. Can see the non-understanding in his eyes. The prize is right there, why am I denied access? - could only get booking for the bitch to be spayed on 16 August. So he has to endure another month of tether... another sadness, though fickle in the grand scheme of things.
Company vehicle also packed up on Wednesday, trust they got it sorted in my absence, gonna be a crappy day...
4:45 - Can hear my nephew, Ryan, leaving for work - better pull myself together and get with the program. So much to do, so little time...
I love you ~ SB
GOD HAVE MERCY - Thank you for all the blessings Lord, I at least could write this under cover of a home with bedding and a bedside PC... Wow! Feeling better already! - God IS good...
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